$$$It's all about the money$$$

Is it? It's easy to say yes. After all, who doesn't want money? We live in a culture where success, fame, and power is attributed to the savings you have in the bank and the gadgets you carry with you while strutting down High Street with your latest Blair Waldorf get-up. (For those who don't watch Gossip Girl, google "Blair Waldorf" under Images. See for yourself.) Who doesn't want to have more so you can spend more and have more and spend more all over again?

For the past weeks, I've been swayed by countless opinions and advices on the issue of resignation for a higher pay, better benefits, and company stability. And I think I've been listening to a lot already. At the end of the day, I get confused. My feelings deceive me into thinking I might have made a wrong decision. After my last post, I thought I'd be ok. You know, get it out of my system, move forward and get on with life and work. But... like a plankton, I get swayed by the current. Now you know where I get my blog title from. :P Gas prices are unbelievable, tuition fees got paid, allowances are to be budgeted, bills need to be paid... these are even more respectable reasons (over the need to carry a certain brand of bag while dining in Serendra) why you need more money. But after some think time (and counsel time w/ Mom and Auntie Ann), I realize the values they instilled in me got a little bit wired up. And now they need some detangling.

I'd like to take this time to re-affirm myself that I did not make a wrong decision. Neither choices were wrong anyway. It's just a matter of sticking to your choice and making it right (yes, yes, i already said that before. i'm just re-affirming :P) It's a matter of honoring the commitment I made, the word I gave. It's a matter of ethics and knowing your values. To be honest, I was at the verge of changing my mind.. again. But after tonight, after hearing what everybody has to say (for the LAST time), I now decide to stick to my choice, manage the decision every day, and live with it for the rest of my life. Will that promise me a better future? I don't know. Who knows anyway. But, as I've read and learned before, happines is a choice and I decide to be happy with my choice and my choice is to make my life better. I will come out of this experience with a few cubic centimeters added to my brain and next time, I will have a better reason for leaving. haha! But seriously, this has been a learning experience. As they say.. charge it to experience!!! I can now say that I personally feel that money should never be my driving force. It has to be something deeper than that. I have faith that God will provide. After all, money is just MONEY (Momentarily Owned, Never Eternally Yours --thanks rp).

DISCLAIMER #1:
Don't get me wrong. I still want to strut down High Street with my Blair Waldorf headband and my Aldo shoes and dine at Portico or somewhere with my Kate Spade just because I want those and just because I'm me. I'm not being hypocrital here. hehe :P Wish ko lang.. sana may quarterly bonus this quarter. Sale pa sa ALDO =))

DISCLAIMER #2:
All stuff written here are purely personal opinions and insights and I do not, by any means, wish to offend anyone :) Whatever works for you, right? :)