Back to normal.

Around me, everything seems so normal. The boys banter around like they always do. Emails arrive from the usual people. All issues are flagged critical and I don't know which one I should prioritize. But inside... everything's changed.

They say it will get better in time. I know that. But right now... the pain just envelopes me.

I have my support system. And everything seems ok and better when they're around. But when I'm alone in my room or in my cube.. it's a totally different story.

At least I know each day is better than the previous one. .01% progress is better than none at all. I wonder how long I have to keep writing before I can look back on all the entries and just laugh it off..

A friend says my smile brightens up his day. (Now I've heard/read that before. Wonder when/where.. hehe) If only he knew that the happiest smile masks the saddest heart.